There's drama everywhere, even if we deny the fact that we are not living in it; it's a lie, and you know it. We all live a life of dramas and problems and it depends if we share it or not. I live a life of drama, my life isn't simple, no matter how much I want it to be.
I get in trouble and I make trouble. I don't show it during classes and I don't show it in front of my friends, but with close ones, they know I'm a trouble maker. It's just me, I'm born this way. I'm good at covering up and also good at acting.
I guess the people who knows me best are the boys I date. I mean, how can one hide their true self with a person you share your love with? I'm a psycho. A mean ass bitch, but still, I don't show it.
Okay. I guess the only person who knows me best is the boy I'm with now. I mean, the others din't stay with me 24/7 so how could they know me like how E knows me?
I'm he's life, and he is mine. I'm mean when I can be, and nice when I want to. I love him but I don't do well when someone lies to me, revenge is what I'm good at. And even though I know he'll get hurt, I do it anyways. I don't do it on purpose but I do it out of habit.
I obviously don't do this to others, I don't know why, but I just don't. Maybe because I don't dig deep in other people's life and I don't want to know too much about them. E says that I'm being arrogant, but honestly I'm too shy to ask too much.
I guess I hate people talking about me behind my back so I chose not to pry in other's too much as well. It's just me and I'm okay with it.
Life has change for me, I don't use to be like this, but I am now. I keep a distance with people and I'm okay with it as well. I just don't trust people so easily and it makes it hard to get close to me. I guess this is who I am.
A crazy girl with hidden agendas. (:
